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An ode to London.

I sit staring out the same window that I’ve come accustomed to for the past two months. A window that looks out to a skyline that has kept me company and surprisingly, been a friend as well. Even with me needing to be up in three more hours, my mind just knows I can’t sleep just yet without saying thank you. 

I started this journey in my head. I told myself, i’m going to back pack through Europe, and i did it. I got on that plane at Washington, DC and flew to Venice, Italy. Without knowing the language, without knowing the culture, without knowing anybody at all. I did it. I did the most unsafe, unknowing, and unsecured thing in my life. 

This city for as gray, cold, and rainy as it’s reputation has done the complete opposite to me. It’s made me vibrante, colorful, strong, inspired. Fuck, London has been the best relationship I have ever been in. In the two months that I’ve been here, I’ve grown. Yeah my legs got stronger from all that walking, but my mind and my emotions have gotten so strong. Yes, every day i missed my family, i missed the convenience of a steady life. I missed being able to settle down with somebody. But I quickly realized that i don’t have to settle myself in order to have all those things. It took me putting an entire ocean between every body that matters for me to know that they’ve never left me to begin with. I can survive on my own without having physically my family around. Technology has enabled that for me and I can be by myself. Europe has taught me that. 

I’m going to miss the continuous streets that are always occupied. No matter what hour of the night, there is always something going on outside. I’ll miss getting on the tube and being able to hear Russian, Spanish, Italian, Arabic, and Chinese all within one subway car. I’ll miss the culture, the art, the museums, minding the gap, and the people who I’ve met. The people who took me in, without even knowing me. I risked every thing for this adventure and I received more than I could ever, in a life time, have imagined. And this is just the beginning of me doing it again. 

So I want to thank Ray for picking me up a complete stranger from the internet in Italy and setting me up with Mad who graciously took yet again, a complete stranger of a friend of a friend in and giving them a place to live. Mad, you and Sharon have welcomed me so amazingly and me telling you thank you over and over again will never do it justice. You let me live with you and you have been the greatest flatmate a gamer comic chick could ever ask for. Callum, you made me ride the tube by myself unaccompanied. Which at first I loathed you for, but you were right, after a couple of weeks, I did know exactly where I was going. Even so, i can now give directions to other toursits. Ben, your kindness meant a lot to me, and our conversation over cake and coca-cola was truly a highlight to my journey here. Giulia,  you are the sweetest girl I’ve ever come across. Meeting you and talking in the cupcake shop was an absolute perfect day. I still can’t believe you gave me Christmas presents to heal some of the homesickness. Everyone else that I’ve met, rooted me on. or who have helped me along the way, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 

I’ve written this entire blog with a teary face, sniffling, listening to England outside of my room. It’s funny, I started this whole entire adventure to find myself, little did I know I’d end up not only defining myself, but knowing who exactly I want to be. We’ve got many more adventures ahead of us, Peter Pan didn’t just have one. And you and I both know, i’m not leaving Neverland any time soon. So goodnight London, and good morning. This won’t be the last time I see you, I can promise you that. 

With love. 

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  1. toddsparrows said: It’s sad that you must leave you’re European adventure to come back to the states. I’m happy you can see you’re stateside friends and relatives and Rufio but it’s been fun to see the updates on your adventure.
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