But for some reason this year i’ve ended up piling a couple on my lap out of no where. I finally started using my Batman piggy bank to start saving the loose change that always falls out of my jeans. I woke up this morning and decided i wanted to go to Iceland, so i dipped into my savings and booked the flight before i had the chance to eat breakfast. I didn’t even think about it, i just went for it. Another resolution i have for 2014.
I have personal goals and emotional ones as well that i’ve set for myself. Not saying ‘yes’ to every single thing, but saying yes enough to make things exciting for me throughout the year. I’ve had my grips around being an adult, and each day the kid in me fights with that. Learning to live with both equally and harmoniously is my biggest goal thus far.
It’s easy to talk a big game when you’re in the glow of a new year, but thats also another resolution i made myself, to follow through. I said goodbye last night and today i said hello. My name is Kyoko, 2014. We’re about to get to know each other really well this year.
I might cry along the way because i try to talk myself out of doing this every year because it takes forever and nobody cares. BUT WHATEVER, HERE WE GO.
(edit: the ‘read more’ feature doesn’t work on the tumblr app so if you’re viewing this from your phone, my bizzle. Your app probably crashed a lot).
What can i say about 2013? I still manage a comic book store (4 year anniversary), i’m still a barista (2 year anniversary), and i’m working at a tattoo parlor now. I’m rotating 3 jobs while attempting to maintain friendships, dogs, family, the dating world, and still going outside to get a fresh breath of air. I’ve done a lot of things wrong, and i’ve done a lot of things right. I’ve met some great people along the way, but i’ve also lost a few. To the ones i’ve lost, i still miss you even though we’ve taken two different paths. To those who have stuck around, fuck, i love you guys so much. You have no idea. The people from the internet who let me crash at their place and housed me even though they didn’t have to. From doing cross country trips and eating so much ice cream. This has been a solid year for me. I have healthy friendships, even healthier relationships.
This has taken me 3 hours to complete, and i have to be up for work in another 4 hours. I won’t be offended if you don’t scroll through, but if you do, i’m glad i could share some intimate moments of my life with you.
I cleaned my room tonight. I swear.
I’m pretty upfront. If i have to chase you, good luck. I don’t chase after shit but happiness, and tying that happiness around one person is one thing i’m not about. I should be happy on my own, having you as a companion is a perk on to that happiness, not the main source. Therefore, if i have to go through social networks, initiate everything, and jump through rings of fire just to get your attention, i’m good without it. You’re not Beyoncé.
I’m all about the middle ground. You know, where most normal people reside whenever you come across one. I have no problem telling you i’m interested in building this friendship into something more romantic. I’m twenty-eight years old, I think i can muster up enough adult aspects to be open and honest about my intentions. If you’re not down, cool. Yeah my feelings will be hurt, i’m not a robot, but at least we got to cut the stupid shit out of chasing the thought around.
Romance is not going after the person who can’t see me. At least, not in my storybook version. There’s nothing romantic about staying awake hours of the night waiting for you to never text me back. Or flirting with me via social network platform just to keep my interests going for your gain. If you don’t see me, that’s fine, i can stop seeing you just the same. It’s not out of spite, and it’s not out of revenge. I just know who is worth having and you’re just not equaling up to it. Maybe we’ll grab coffee one day, i don’t know, I’ll text ya.
Adventures in Babysitting had one of the biggest impacts on my childhood.
I never saw girls my age reading comics anywhere, especially in film. It was always just a boy thing. So when i saw Sara being completely obsessed with comics and Thor i stopped feeling like the black sheep of the world. I shoved my dad into the couch and made him watch the entire movie while i belted out, “LOOK DAD! A GIRL READING COMICS!! SHE LOVES THOR!!!” I was so stoked you guys, seriously. Here i was, this little girl obsessed with Batman that would get taunted by boys and men for reading comics smiling from ear to ear because FINALLY, i knew i wasn’t alone.
I can go on and on about how Wonder Woman needs her own movie, that women can open a blockbuster film. That women in comics DO EXIST and we are proving that every single day. Especially on tumblr. But i just want to thank this film for saving my life, and my comic collection.